Loss of Friends

     There are many things in my life that I have done that I would like to change. Even though I would not like to change a thing. But there is one thing that still haunts me in my everyday life. I do not really talk much about it but here it goes.
     Friends mean so much to me and I think they are important to have in life, always. In eighth grade I lost most of my friends. I was damaged by the thought of them not liking me after we had known eachother for so long. The memories are hard to forget but knowing that it was so easy to give up on a friend, I must have never had that friend in the first place.
     I guess I changed and they did not like it but at that time I was just acting out. I did this because I always felt alone and when I felt important, I made mistakes to keep feeling important. Mistakes that I had no idea that I would make and that I never knew I made in the first place. Some people stay in my life and some people go, and the people that were with me through that time was Jaden and Alex. I love them to death and thank them for never giving up on me and being a true friend.
     If I changed this then I would have to live with the people that were fake to me a whole six years of my life. I do not need that and if I were still friends with those people I would be damaged and broken because I would have no one to comfort me in the end. I would have allowed myself to be hurt over and over again, not even knowing it.
     Thought the times I went through were rough, I am glad it all happened because I would not have the friends that I have now and I would have never been so strong and so independent.